Satisfied in Him

My job over the last couple of days has allowed me the freedom to read a book. It is a book by Beth Moore called "The Beloved Disciple". I had started this book last summer right after surgery with my family who I was staying with at the time. We would sit down every day or every other day and talk about the chapter we had just read. It was an amazing time!!! Life happened and I got busy and I had to lay the book down for a while, well I was blessed to be able to pick it back up this week and so I have read a few chapters. I had an ahha moment while reading on Tuesday. Beth said, God is most glorified when we are satisifed in Him!!! Let me say it again because its just that good: GOD IS MOST GLORIFIED WHEN WE ARE SATISFIED IN HIM!!!! I received a fresh revelation from the Lord when I read that! I want to be totally satisfied in Him so that He gets all the glory. Someone made a comment to me the other day, they said Doris you look happy, you look like your a woman in love!!! I am not in love with a physical man on this earth, I am not even in a relationship with a man, but I do love a man named Jesus!!!! I was able to look at this person and say I'M IN LOVE WITH JESUS!!! And that my friend is the best kind of love anyone could ever ask for. It should bring every woman freedom to know that she is loved by a man named Jesus and because of that man you can walk in freedom and walk in knowing that you are loved. I know that I am loved today and I am satisfied in Him!!!

Amazing

Amazing how when you write something on your blog you know it has to be the Lord. Something had been stirring in my spirit a few days after I wrote a blog. I started praying and I said Lord whatever it is prepare my heart, my mind and my emotions to be able to handle what is to come. My heart was tested in a very real way for me this week. Ya know life isn't always going to be pleasant to you and you can't rest on your laurels and think that because I follow Jesus that things won't happen to me. That's a lie! I am glad that the Lord sees enough in me to not want me to stay in the same place. Although in the moment of walking through something new is always hard its good to come on the other side of things better than when you started. I must say though that I love getting older (to some degree) because I see the value in the wisdom I have gained by getting older. If this would have happened to me a few years ago I probably would have made it drag out a lot longer than necessary. Now I can look at things, pray, hear the Lord, make the necessary changes and move on. Bless the Lord for that!! I love the revelation that happens when you free your mind to receive from the Lord. Change isn't easy for me, it never is, but the Lord knows me so well that He handles himself in a way that I won't crumble and fall apart. I am reminded of a song this morning that I have been singing over the past couple of days. It says: I want to yearn for You, I want to burn with passion over You, my God...I can only yearn for the Lord when all of the "junk" gets removed. I love hearing from the Lord!!! Don't you?

Heart of Gold

This morning as I was reading in Malachi I began to think about how do you have a heart of gold? One of the things the Lord is talking about in Malachi is that the people did not have a sincere heart! So I began this morning by looking at my own life and asking myself, do I have a sincere heart? I would have to say that most of the time I do. There are those few moments in life where people tend to get on your nerves, or they say the wrong thing, or even do a wrong thing towards you that makes you say, what were they thinking? Then you have to walk through a process but the beginning stages are not always pleasant. I want to retaliate and be wounded but that's not the Lord! I am blessed by people who tell me that they enjoy me because I am a friendly person and that I have a sweet spirit. Thank you to any person who has ever told me that!!! When people say things like that to me it is a true testimony of what only the Lord can do in a person's life!!! When I look back over my life, my life tells the story of I should be a bitter, angry, old woman. Life has never really ever gone my way but in the midst of all of that the Lord has always shown himself faithful to me. I was reminded this week when I didn't get a job I wanted, people around me encouraged me by stating that the Lord has always been faithful to you Doris. (I cry as I write this because its something I am working through this week). The Lord continually shows me that He made me to have a heart of gold and He makes that heart of gold possible by keeping me in the safety of who He is and ALWAYS proving himself faithful to me!!!!

Celebrate

I want to celebrate the little things in life! I want to be happy with looking back over my single years and say hey I didn't waste my time waiting around. Today I want to think back over this past few years of singleness and remember all the good things. I am blessed to sleep in whenever I want to!! I am blessed to not have to answer anyone or let someone know that I am going somewhere!! I am blessed that I can walk around in my pajama's all day!! I don't have to share the remote control with a child!! I can go eat out with friends or family anytime and not worry about someone else!! I don't have to think about fixing meals for other people, I can go at my leisure!! I don't have to share my car, therefore the only one changing the radio stations is me!! There are no leggo's for me to step on during the night!! I only have to clean my house twice a week, I don't need to vaccum everyday, its not like I'm on the floor!! Those are just a few of the blessings of being single!! I would have to say though that my best thing is that I can talk to Jesus anytime I want to because I am not having to think about other people around me. Jesus and I have conversations while I am in bed, in the car, on the couch where ever we want. So today think on the positive things in life!! It will get you far in the world!!

To Be or Not to Be....

Angry is the question. I have been walking through some things the past few weeks. Everything seems to come back to being single. I have to ask myself questions quite frequently like, am I happy being single? Am I content with where God has me in life? Am I blessed to be single? I have had to walk around the past few weeks and really examine my life. I don't want to be angry for being single!! I don't want to look at being single as a curse!!! I don't want to live my life angry because then what value is that to me!!! It profits nothing. We live in a world where everyone asks you a standard of questions when you first meet them, one of them being are you married or single? I have been on the receiving end of people's faces when they ask how old are you, and your not married yet? Our world says that a woman cannot be complete unless she is married. That is completely not true. I need to be able to find my identity in the Lord first and not look to any man or any person to complete me. It isn't easy sometimes to be this old and still be single. Its not easy when you belong to a great church and there is an emphasis on marriage and the value that is placed on marriages. I want one day to have the greatest marriage that God can give but right now I want to have the greatest marriage with Jesus!!! I don't want to live my life angry because of the season I am in. So I chose this day to NOT be angry. I chose to be blessed because I am single. There are a lot of great and wonderful things I can do because I am single and I choose to look at the positive and I choose to walk in the freedom of being single!!!!

Friendship

What a blessing friendship is. I grew up with a twin sister, which is fabolous and fun, if you're NOT a twin!! My sister and I would both be millionaires right now if we were paid a quarter for every time someone walked up to us and said, "are ya'll twins?" After some years went by and we got older we started coming up with our own lines to say, like no we are just really great friends, we get that a lot but no, to just flat out saying NO WE ARE NOT TWINS!! When you grow up as a twin you tend to get lost in each other. We were always grouped together like we were one person. We have had to share clothes, birthday presents, or for that matter any present, and even birthday cakes (the one time we got one). We were never classified as Doris and Dona, no we were "the twins", "the girls". Growing up was pretty frustrating for both of us. I am now glad to say that I have come on the other side of that and I have really stepped into my own. I am Doris, just Doris, do I have a twin? Yes but we are two individual people. When we were growing up we were inseparable. I didn't have any friends growing up it was Dona and me. Dona had friends and I was always the tag along. My junior year of high school I had my very first friend. The first friend outside of Dona. It was a good experience and I learned a lot in the process. Then as I went into college Dona and I went our separate ways. We had different things we wanted to do. I went to college and started making my own friends. It was a hard process I had to go through. I wasn't always the good friend, I was having to learn how to be a friend when everyone else learned it as kids. I am now happy to say that I can stand up and say that I am a good friend to the people I am in relationship with. And I have some amazing friends!! My life is blessed because of them!!! So today I want to think on friendship and the blessing that it has been to my life!!!!

Ode to the Single Life

Ode to the Single Life What a wonderful thing we have called technology! I have now entered the world of blogger land and I believe that this will be a fun exciting way to share my life, if not with other people, then at least for myself. I am a 28 year old single woman who believes in Jesus and believes that His way are not my ways!!! If I would have gotten to map out my own life I would have already been married with 2.5 kids, had the white picket fence, and the two car garage. God saw fit instead to challenge me to grow up in the Lord and to lean on Him to be my husband, father, friend, and everything I could possibly need. Over the course of the last nine years of my life I have been on a journey, a journey to discover who I am in Christ, who I am as a woman, what am I called to do and now finding out what it means to be single as I inch closer to 30. So this blog was created by me but most importantly its for me and any other person who ever feels like what to do with the life God has given me. I am overjoyed with the possibilities of putting my thoughts down on paper. Always remember that God is bigger than ANYTHING!!!!!!